April 18, 2014 / 45 ♥

thevampiredrinkscoke:

Should there ever
be a moment when you
doubt what you mean
to me, listen;
look closer.

You’ll find traces
of yourself
even when I dare not
say your name;
even when I dare not
look at you.

Always
I will think of you
even during the nights
when you forget my name.

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April 18, 2014 / 10 ♥
I don’t really buy coffee for myself because bawal ako sa kape plus ang mahal. But yesterday was a different story. See, the past few days were the roughest. Seeing your father lying in bed, having a hard time breathing is the most painful you’ll ever experience. Then you have to go to work on a Holiday because you have a lot of deliverables to finish and issues to face. And I faced them all. I finished them all. Working from 11AM to 10PM while thinking about your  father and your other life’s struggles..man that’s just one bitter taste of life. But I am swallowing it. Because at the end of the day, bubusugin ako ng lahat ng yun then I will have the energy and strength for yet another day.

I don’t know why I am sharing this. Maybe because somewhere out there may isang taong gaya ko. Naiisip na sumuko kasi sobrang lungkot na o sobrang hirap na o sobrang nakakapagod na. Wag. Ito ang tunay na laban ng buhay. Gusto ko pag tapos ng lahat ng to, masasabi ko sa sarili ko… I’ve been there and I got through it!! I am one tough cookie!! I am a super girl indeed!!! If you are like me, facing a lot of difficult stuff all at once, treat yourself something. Maybe a coffee or a pair of bikini. Just treat yourself. Life is hard but here you are, alive and facing it. Man that’s super! You deserve a virtual pat on the back!! :) Let’s not talk about how big our problem is. Let’s start declaring how Big our God is. :)

I don’t really buy coffee for myself because bawal ako sa kape plus ang mahal. But yesterday was a different story. See, the past few days were the roughest. Seeing your father lying in bed, having a hard time breathing is the most painful you’ll ever experience. Then you have to go to work on a Holiday because you have a lot of deliverables to finish and issues to face. And I faced them all. I finished them all. Working from 11AM to 10PM while thinking about your father and your other life’s struggles..man that’s just one bitter taste of life. But I am swallowing it. Because at the end of the day, bubusugin ako ng lahat ng yun then I will have the energy and strength for yet another day.

I don’t know why I am sharing this. Maybe because somewhere out there may isang taong gaya ko. Naiisip na sumuko kasi sobrang lungkot na o sobrang hirap na o sobrang nakakapagod na. Wag. Ito ang tunay na laban ng buhay. Gusto ko pag tapos ng lahat ng to, masasabi ko sa sarili ko… I’ve been there and I got through it!! I am one tough cookie!! I am a super girl indeed!!! If you are like me, facing a lot of difficult stuff all at once, treat yourself something. Maybe a coffee or a pair of bikini. Just treat yourself. Life is hard but here you are, alive and facing it. Man that’s super! You deserve a virtual pat on the back!! :) Let’s not talk about how big our problem is. Let’s start declaring how Big our God is. :)

How can you fully unlove someone?

April 17, 2014 / 7 ♥

Sabi nila, di mo daw pwede “i-unlove” ang isang tao. Kasi deep within your heart, mahal mo pa din sya. Ibang klase na nga lang. Pwede love as in CARE. Or love as in FRIEND or kakilala or parte ng nakaraan mo.

Sabi naman nila kapag sobrang nasaktan ka nya, magagawa mo ding tigilan na mahalin siya.

Sabi naman nila kapag nakita mo na syang may kasamang iba o masaya sa iba..marerealize mo na dapat mo na din talaga syang kalimutan at tigilang mahalin.

O ang pinakamalupet, mapapagod ka din. Sa kakaasa at kakaiyak.

Pero bakit sa’yo, kahit sobrang sakit na, kahit sobrang sampal na sa mukha ko na sya at hindi ako nag laman ng puso mo, kahit sobrang pagod na pagod na akong umasa at umiyak…bakit nandito pa din ako? Bakit ikaw pa din?

Sinubukan ko namang lumabas. Palawakin ang mundo ko. Makipagkilala at makipagdate. At sa tuwing ginagawa ko yun, iisa lang ang naiisip ko. Pakiramdam ko nagtataksil pa din ako sayo.

Inisip ko nga, gusto nga ba talaga kitang kalimutan? Kasi diba kung gusto naman, may paraan? Hindi ko na din talaga alam pa kung ano ang gusto ko. Ang alam ko lang, kahit gaano ako nasasaktan ngayon, sa pagdaan ng araw, sa paglipas ng mga oras, sa pagtulog sa gabi, ikaw pa din ang huling maiisip ko. Ikaw pa din ang taong pinapangarap ko.

Di naman talaga unfair ang mundo e. Kaya ako nasasaktan ngayon ay dahil choice ko pa din na piliin ka. Pwede ko namang baguhin lahat ng yun. Pero wala e. Love is a decision nga diba? And I always decide to love you, inspite of and despite of.

Miss na kita Mr. O. Sana magawa ko na ding kalimutan ka.

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April 17, 2014 / 3 ♥

If you’re still there…somewhere…reading this blog of mine that was used to be dedicated for you…I just want to let you know that I’m still here. Waiting for you. Loving you. And hoping that one day, you would look into my eyes again and tell me…You miss being with me. That you want to be with me again.

Is it pathetic? Yes. But I cannot help it. Deep inside, it’s you I really want. It’s still you.

And I hope one day, you would find within yourself that it’s still me.

I miss you. So much.

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